Lately nie,aku memang emotionally drained . Sumpah memang rasa KECIK hati gilaa (saja je besarkan font 'kecik' tu ) ..anyhow,blogger.com nie memang tempat aku muntahkan segala kekecewaan,ke"lara"an ,semua "ke" lahh..
hmmmm,kenapa dia tak pernah nampak apa yang aku rasa?
kenapa??
kenapa??
dia lebih pentingkan apa orang fikir pasal dia than me ???
what am I?
kermitt the frog ?
huh ?
How does it feel when you've been avoided by someone that you already treat as a hommie ?
Sumpah aku KECIK hati gilaa..
hang nak suruh aku muhasabah diri ?-every freakin' single time aku recall semua "hospitality" aku kut ..
Penat tahu tak?
Hari-hari saya cari kesalahan saya,fikir yang bukan2 .. ,fikir saya dah buat awak marah ,SUMPAH PENAT .
Sometimes,aku fikir .
What for I stand by this relationship ? its not worth it if you still haven't accept who really I am .
I know rite ?I'm not like everybody else ,I'm useless,I'm stupid,lembab,buruk,DORKY,not fashionable and the most important is that I'm just "different" from everybody else .What else did I forgot to mention about?
Have I ever complaining about your attitude ?
Have I ever use your advantages to solve my problems?
Have I ever blackmailing you ?
Have I ever claim all the good deeds I've done for you ?
Have I ever changing you to be somebody else ?
I still remembered you said that you don't need me,you don't need my help.
My heart break into pieces at the moment you said that,Wallahi.
The reason why I'm with you is not because of your wealth,
is not because of your looks,
is not because of your status ,
is not because of your brain,
I'm with you because of really who you are .
I shouldn't say this rite ?why ?because I AM A LIAR to you ,
useless ..
You just care of whats people say about you,not me ..
and I don't know why my heart still say that I should be patient and bear with all of your attitude..
and I don't know how long will Allah give this strength to face all this hurts ..
There's always tonnes of excuses when I ask you to be with me ,
I know rite,imma such boring person.
its okay,now I know my position .
Lets see what's the next move in this game huh ?
Thanks friend :")
